what is my calling?
Am I “doing” enough?
Am I fulfilling my purpose?
These are my constant questions. To the point where sometimes I my mind is whizzing with self doubt. Double Minded. That is never a good place to be.
Sometimes my mind is at peace. Sometimes my mind is evaluating everything that I do….
…does it have value?
….is it in line with my purpose?
…am I following God’s plan for my life?
…am I doing enough “Christian work” to be pleasing to God?
It can get quite busy inside my head.
I don’t have all the answers. I recognise though, that I need confidence that I am in the right place.
Without that confidence the double mindedness floods in and what does the Bible say about that type of thinking?
James 1:8 A double minded man is unstable in all his ways
It actually says before that verse that this type of person should not expect anything from God. Why? because she hasn’t got clear direction on what she is doing or where she is going. She is lacking that confidence.
It’s the sweet spot for living….
A Clear direction.
A Firm strategy.
Then all you need is the action.
But if I am debating the direction and strategy continually – switching from one road to another then doubting each decision – then there is major confusion and NO ACTION.
Well actually there is action but it is running around in circles and not getting me anywhere.
What I want is forward action towards my end game.
Is there a point where we just stop all the evaluating and just pick an end game and go for it?
Through all this questioning about my calling, my purpose and what God wants of me – the message I receive from Him is this:
Be STILL and KNOW that I AM God – Psalm 46:10
Maybe this is my life’s sweet spot –
….learning to be STILL
…learning to KNOW that He is God.